In philosophy class Sunday morning we discussed "suffering". Necessarily suffering vs. unnecessary suffering, mental and physical suffering, causes, what we can do, and a shitload* of semantics.

At the end, the instructor told us to spend the week without reacting negatively to stuff (no getting angry at someone for leaving something out, dwelling on the past, punching cats, ext.), and in such, remove unnecessary suffering from our lives by focusing on the good instead of the bad. That whole weekend I had a cold, so I figured that would be where I would have to focus hardest throughout the week.

I come home and talk to some old friends I hadn't talked to in a very long time (over a month for one, about 4 or 5 for the other) and find out that they both were recently dumped. That night I could not sleep, instead I laid awake thinking about my dead brother and what it would be like if I died (on earth, seeing my friends and family suffer)only able to get one thought out of my head by replacing it with the other.

I woke up to news that one of my friends is hurt and another ones cat just died (you know who you are.)

So, keeping positive for a week is not as easy as I had hoped.

*The approximate calculation of a shitload is 743 lbs.